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it's weird how sometimes, you can be friends with one person, but then when you meet all the rest of the people they associate with, it's hard for you to assimilate into that group. you would think that somehow if you're a certain's person's friend, you would automatically be able to get along with the people they get along with -- since people attract people who are like them, right?

today i had one of those experiences. it's always a little disappointing to know that there are types of people that i can't get close to. people that i can't even imagine wanting to know more about. people that i prefer to know on the surface level and keep it at that. that doesn't happen to me very often -- i usually want get to know people more. today was different somehow.

i can't really say what it was. maybe it's because we were at the mall and we kept going into really expensive stores like armani, fendi, chanel etc. although, that usually doesn't make me feel uncomfortable at all. a lot of my friends are actually rich enough to buy things in those places without even looking at the price tags. maybe it was the fact that these people weren't my friends. i don't know. i just felt really silly going into those stores today. maybe because we were going in there without intent to buy [as opposed to how it usually is].

maybe i was just still in my bad mood and couldn't snap out of it enough to enjoy the company of the people i was with. maybe i was just perceiving things weirdly today.

"none of my clothes cost more than like... two dollars. okay, maybe five dollars, but that's my limit." i proclaimed, in one of the more affluent stores.

"i think you're in the wrong place, then," my friend replied.

i think i was too.

as the evening wore on i began to think more about my relationships with people and how they work. how do i get along with certain people and can only be acquaintances of other people? i really don't know.

maybe it's just PMS or something, and i don't feel like getting along with people. i don't know what it is but im feeling alone. =T

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Posted by Kim @ 09:46 PM PST

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Kim, i'm not inspired by many people, and when i am, they're usually older/dead people... i have to say that i make an exception for you. you inspire me. and i've lately needed inspiration.
(thanks kim shady.. veggie vamp.)

Posted by ameer [e-meo] [virtual dwelling] @ 11/11/2001 03:26 AM PST

I know what you feel Kim. I think I feel pretty lonely too... do you have a Lj? maybe we can read each other's Ljs ???

Posted by Roci [virtual dwelling] @ 11/11/2001 01:04 AM PST